That's just the way it is.

Ever wonder how things change so quickly? It's amazing how you get so used to the same routine, same people, pretty much knowing what to expect, and so on; but when those things change, it can be hard to handle.

One thing I've come to realize is that people take things for granted all too often. People always say, "You never know what you really have until it's gone." I guess in a way this is true. Maybe not all of the time, because with some things that I have or people that I love, I know how special they are and I try my best to let them know that I feel that way. But with some things, we all take them for granted. We have a roof over our head, plenty of food to eat (especially those of us that work in a deli), nice cars, good families, a free country to worship God as we please (to an extent these days, anyway) and a Bible to lead and direct our paths in life. These things should not be taken for granted. You might say, "Well, I just lucked out and was born into a Christian home and in a free country." No... It was a blessing from God that we were born into these places and it was His will for it to happen that way. Same goes for those who were born in situations that aren't so pleasant. God puts people through trials because it is His will - He knows exactly what He is doing. He puts some through tough situations to see them through so that He will get the glory out of it. Some go through tough times so that they might be able to be a help to others in the future who are going through the same circumstances. A lady whom I love dearly and look up to has been through a lot of the same things that I'm going through and she has been an awesome blessing and encouragement to me. I don't see how I would have made it through these past couple of months without her love, encouragement and advice. Times are tough, speaking from experience, but with God we can all make it through the fire. We just have to put all of our faith and trust in Him and know that He will work everything out according to His will. Philippians 2:13 says, "For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure."

I just want to tell you to not take all the things that you have for granted. Thank God everyday for what He's done, the good and the "bad," as we sometimes see it. Just remember that God knows exactly what He's doing. If you have a pastor that loves you, prays for you and wants to see you make it for God, stand behind him 100% and pray for him often. If you have parents that want what's best for you, follow them. If you have good friends, love them and be the best friend that you possibly can be to them.

For all of you who have invested in me, prayed for me, blessed me with your friendship, encouraged me, and most of all loved me - I thank you. You hold a special place in my heart and I thank God for you daily.

I love you guys.

-Ashlee